Hei. Jeg trenger noen å snakke med akkurat nå. Jeg har kronisk sykdom (Long Covid) og har vært deprimert og hatt selvmordstanker hver dag over lengre tid. Akkurat nå er tankene mye sterkere enn vanlig, og jeg sitter alene på rommet mitt.
Sykdommen gjør at jeg ikke klarer å jobbe stabilt. Jeg er selvstendig næringsdrivende og elsker jobben min – det som startet som en hobby har blitt karrieren min, og jeg har jobbet hardt for å komme dit jeg er. Når jeg får en crash, må jeg avlyse jobb og planer og føler at hele livet stopper opp.
Jeg er også veldig redd for økonomien. Jeg er redd for å gå tom for penger og miste leiligheten, hunden og samboeren min. Jeg ønsker egentlig bare å bli frisk og kunne fortsette å jobbe og leve som før.
Jeg vet ikke helt hva jeg skal gjøre akkurat nå, og trenger hjelp til å komme meg gjennom denne kvelden.
Beklager, men jeg så dette først nå. Jeg var der for snart 30 år sia, og vil gjerne dele mitt dikt om åssen det gikk. Jeg vil også be 🙏🏼 for deg.
Out of the darkness!
I suffered deep depressions for many years, many days were filled with darkness and tears.
They thought it was something mental at first, but at the end they reversed; as they found out it was a so-called chronic sleeping illness, which caused all the grimness.
Some “antidepressiva medicine” were meant to give me some nurse, but instead they only made me worse!
It was like a dark tunnel and an evil spiral, making me even suicidal! How long should this extend, would it never end?
Then i met my husband to be, and he asked to pray for me. He strongly believed that by His wounds we are healed today, so boldly in His powerful Name he did pray!
Instantly The Lord healed me completely from it all; which many people couldn’t forestall!
Numerous of years have gone by since The Light drew me out of the darkness; healing me because of His Love and faithfulness. I will always be grateful to Him, Who also paid for my sin.
Therefore i testify all this to you, hoping you will seek His help too. I know you will never regret it; but rather rejoice that to His Word you did submit!
20.05.24.